Of Changes and Unchanging Things

I am... unsettled... now, about a lot of possible changes that are about to come. I've always been the type of person who resists change but I don't know. I woke up one morning and I realized that I need this anyway. New things, new things. They could be good, too.

Ironically, this night out also reminded me that there are things that don't change. Preppier clothes, fancier cars, pounds (whether lost or gained) ,and new people in our lives come; but beyond all this, it's still the same banter, the same memories... the same person. This is quite reassuring-- that people may move about in your life, your environment may always change, but there are those who will remain to be your "person" as Meredith Grey would put it.

Great night, great night.

On Gambling and Learning

"When you love someone, say it right there, out loud, or time will just pass you by." That's one of my favorite quotes from one of my favorite movies, My Bestfriend's Wedding.

See, all my life, I have held on to what is safe, what is vague, and what is comfortable, and it led me to an insipid life of forever wondering what could've been. So I came to a point of swearing off all comfort zones and I gambled with all I had.

I loved.

Regret is one of the worst feelings I have ever had, and this time, I didn't want to end up one day wondering, "what if I gave it my best shot?" And so, mustering up all my guts, I gambled. All my chips on the table.

I lost.

But I learned that triumph is not really just about winning the gamble, but it's having no regrets hanging over your head. It stings as hell, but yeah, I'd have my day.

If you don't win, at least you'd learn, right Mraz?