Of Scattered Thoughts and a Sad Bottomline

I was YMing with an ex-officemate, MeanMay, and she asked, "No, really...what are your thoughts about it?" (referring to a rather shocking occurence in this place where we met). I answered, "My thoughts...My thoughts are everywhere."

I really don't know what to think... I also find it quite hard to decipher what I feel, as a matter of fact. Not only about that "rather shocking occurence" but about stuff i'm being dealt with right now. Honestly, from the pit of my stomach and the depths of my heart, I solidly, wholeheartedly believe there is no reason to be down or depressed or low or even anxious about. After all, I just so know that God minds every detail of my life. But I did find myself in tears as I lay my head on my pillow last night.

I guess it's just the physical exhaustion over the weekend, the emotional roller coaster for the past few days, my Lord's personal dealings to my heart that He just finds so precious...and the loneliness perhaps?

I don't even feel worried, as I my heart so trusts His word that He works for the good of those who love Him (rom 8:28). I don't feel angry, for bottomline, there's no one(or no use) to blame. I don't feel hopeless for I find countless of reasons to wake-up each day and move toward my destiny.

I guess I'm just... sad.

Can I be sad, Lord?

Such an Ally Mcbeal moment

Such an Ally Mcbeal moment, last night was. Walking along the deserted road of Rufino, with one cold hand tucked in my coat pocket and the other hand holding up the umbrella that shielded me from the gentle drops of rain; with Norah Jones singing in the background (from my ipod at least), the thought crossed my mind. It was such an Ally Mcbeal moment. Only there is nothing to be tormented about. There is no reason to be bitter or dejected. My God is too good.

Wishlist

I was browsing through my December blogs and I realized that the Lord has already answered quite a number of my faith-filled Christmas wishlist items hehe. In bold are those that I already received as of July 2, 2007 :)

My Christmas Wishlist

I turned 24 this year, so i have 24 things on my list haha

1. a leather bound bible-- hand bag size but not so trim line

2. a laptop

3. a massage √

4. a fun, fulfilling, challenging and good paying DAY job √

5. a flat/apartment of my own in Makati

6. a new couch for our apartment :p

7. hard bound planner √

8. CBTL gc's

9. a pair of boots√

10. spa treat√

11. an ipod√

12. 1 year supply of coke (light hihi as if)

13. my own copy of captivating

14. CW classes

15. digi cam√

16. a trip to sagada√ /palawan/bora

17. a puppy

18. backpacking trip to europe

19. funky accessories√

20. shu uemura make-up hehe


21. medium to large organizer boxes√ /tool box-- i cant get enough of them haha

22. abrelata/ice tray/kitchen stuff

23. boxer shorts √ and cotton tank tops

24. a car



And here is my updated wishlist